mattonlymoore People have been asking me if I'm worried about my surgery tomorrow. My reply has been a consistent "not really", but if I'm being honest it's been closer to the "sorta really" section of the scaredy-cat scale. But then last night my best buds threw me a pajama party stacked with pizza, ice cream, a cake, wine and a surprise stripper who danced to a thyroid-themed playlist of "Down with the Sickness", "My Neck, My Back" and Frozen's "Let it Go". We stayed up late and talked about what would happen if the moon exploded and laid on the floor together for hours just so I wouldn't be alone at home, staring at the ceiling and worrying myself to sleep about an insignificant little speck of cancer in my neck. Those of you who know me know that I'm not one to tap the sap, especially in a venue like this, but how can I not at least attempt to relay all the love and support I'm feeling right now. Love trumps all. It trumps worry and disease and cancer and death. The warmth I've gotten from friends, family, coworkers, acquaintances, health pros and strangers is not only astounding, it's fear-crushing. How could I possibly be afraid of anything with a team like this at my back? If I was this cancer, I'd be shitting my tight little cancer pants right now wishing I was bigger and tougher and had more friends to back me up. I'd be scared to the point of soilage when I realized nobody else wants to fuck with this fam. When I woke up this morning I thought about surgery again and my first thought was about how unafraid I am. Tomorrow, I'm going to teabag this tumor with the help of the good folks at OHSU, I'm going to snap back into shape and I'm going to walk the hospital halls as though I'm surrounded by an army of pajama-clad warrior-friends. Thanks to you all for your unnecessarily excessive kindness. You're all such good people that it makes me want to live to be 150 just to attempt to grow the goodness you've already got. I love you and I'll see you soon. Hopefully I'll be shirtless and sporting a really long beard and a tough-looking throat scar. Bunches of love,

Matt
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mattonlymoore 🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳(_!_)🌳🌳🌳 5d

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mattonlymoore from the tulip fields of Oregon 5d

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  •   aharp23 How long are you in St Louis for? 5d

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mattonlymoore I used to be a J.C. Penny newspaper model before they got too corporate. #tbt 1w

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mattonlymoore New Look, Same Sad Taste!!! @jasonkreher and myself are serving up a healthy helping of heartbreak over at schadenfreezers.com 1w

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mattonlymoore 😛 2w

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mattonlymoore You're comin with me, bud. 2w

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mattonlymoore #tbt shooting with Big Gay Ray in the desert. @raygordonphoto 3w

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mattonlymoore @otherdarcie opens up about her emotional state #feelings 4w

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  •   manu7 I have done that job with @andee_b. Not that easy to unclog the chipper.... 1mon
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mattonlymoore Swimhole Scouting Season 1mon

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mattonlymoore Adults! 1mon

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mattonlymoore @mtabtabai bout to have a baby-q 1mon
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  •   thecraigallen This is exactly what it was like for me today on the mountain. Except for it was nighttime, it was dark, there were no dogs, and it was freezing. 1mon
  •   msorrell @thecraigallen I guess those blood thirsty hell wolves were sorta like dogs? No? 1mon

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mattonlymoore I'll take em all. 1mon

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mattonlymoore New series drops next week // The Flavor Of Our Discontent // Just in time for Winter// cc: @jasonkreher
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